swifternet:

I would be lying if I said I haven’t gotten super wrapped up in worrying if I’ll meet Taylor on this tour. I dream about it constantly. But I think I’m finally coming to terms that the chances of it happening are VERY slim, nearly impossible. And honestly it’s a relief. It’s been such a point of stress for me, worrying that my outfits and signs and everything have to be perfect, but now I feel like some of that weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

Meeting Taylor would be the greatest moment of my life, and I truly believe that if it’s meant to happen it’ll happen, whether it’s this year or fifty years from now and it’ll be worth every moment of the wait. And if I’m not meant to ever meet her, that’s fine too. I know that she knows how much I love her and how much she’s done for me and I’ll never be able to repay her for everything she’s helped me through.

Of course I am still going to keep hope alive that it could happen, but it’s not a major concern for me anymore. I am going to be in the same arena as Taylor twice this year, seeing her do what she loves so much and that is more than I could have ever hoped for. I’m still going to dress up like crazy and make signs and have the absolute time of my life and be that crazy person screaming and crying and having a meltdown the entire time, and THAT is what I am most excited for. Also I am going to get to meet so many friends I’ve made on here and that is going to be SO. AMAZING. I can’t wait. See you all this summer. ❤️

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